Saturday, January 30, 2010

Nathan Everett




Dear Nathan,
You are my best friend. Every time I feel like I am alone in the world I know that you are there (even from Brazil) for me.  I can't tell you how much you mean to me.  Like literally can not.
But I'll try anyways.
Basically if someone murdered you I'd go on a rampage seeking revenge.  Think Kill Bill kind of revenge.
Since 7th grade you've been making me laugh, angry(sometimes furious), happy, and sometimes sad.  YOU brought me to our friend Carson, the Baby Giraffe. YOU encouraged me in so many aspects of my life. YOU supported me and held me to the ground.  I know I can be flighty and indecisive but you have helped me to get my head out of the clouds when it is time for work.

I love playing Zelda while you play some weird internet game; not even talking to each other. Even when you get frustrated at my poor skills.
Your dad makes the best salad ever.Your mom's cooking rocks in general. and I have never eaten tastier deserts then those you make.
We've had our fun times and those serious best-friend talks.  I thank God every day that he blessed me with such a wonderful person. If for some horrible reason we loose contact (we wont or I'll hurt you) I will look back on these last few years with you and only have things to smile about.
You still owe me a fricken high school dance since you've taken every other girl you've been friends with (jerk).
Honestly, writing this seems almost pointless.   It's pointless because I think you know how much you mean to me.  It's therapeutic to let it out and write it down... but that doesn't seem to be reason enough.
The things I wish you could understand.

Here is my promise to you:
I promise to always be your friend, to be there when you need me the most.
I promise to put up with your crap, and to enjoy the good moments.
I promise to never let you feel like you've let me down, and to always tell you when you make me proud.
I promise to never let you down, and to always make you proud.
I promise I will always be a part of your life.

Now I feel ultra corny for writing this. But hey, you're my best friend.
I love you.
~Emmers

P.S. I have no idea why I wrote it in letter format.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

A thank you to Ms. Lauren Miller


Lauren,
I can't even begin to accurately describe what you have done for me.  If it weren't for that day I wore Matt's girlie cologne... I can't even fathom how different my life would be.
See You've done more then be my friend.  More then a really great friend.
You have, in a sense, set me free.
Before I was so trapped in a world of hypocrites and fake people that I didn't have a chance to know who I really was.  Since you have shown me what else the world has to offer besides school I've been so much happier.
To sum up our friedship:
Eating popcorn and watching movies.
Eating cake.
Eating in general.
Discussing Harry Potter and other books at length.
Magic. Dinosaurs. Music.
Jareth riding a uni-giraffe in a desert at sunset.
Making our kids get married.
Acting like idiots in public. (ahem... the condom incident)

You will be a part of my life forever, even if that means kidnapping you and holding you hostage in my basement.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Story Intro

So I am writing a story set in a post-apocalyptic Earth.  I am really loving the idea and what I have so far is really good.  But to be mean I am only going to post my intro.
Enjoy :)

Monday, January 18, 2010

Food For Thought: Another Poem To Take A Look At -Two Actually

First, I know my title shouldn't have capitalized prepositions, but I don't care :)

Now, for what this is really about: A poem.  The favorite of my good friend Lauren, in fact...

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The Cremation of Sam McGee

By Robert W. Service

There are strange things done in the midnight sun
By the men who moil for gold;
The Arctic trails have their secret tales
That would make your blood run cold;
The Northern Lights have seen queer sights,
But the queerest they ever did see
Was that night on the marge of Lake Lebarge
I cremated Sam McGee.

Now Sam McGee was from Tennessee, where the cotton blooms and blows.
Why he left his home in the South to roam ‘round the Pole, God only knows.
He was always cold, but the land of gold seemed to hold him like a spell;
Though he’d often say in his homely way that “he’d sooner live in hell.”

On a Christmas Day we were mushing our way over the Dawson trail.
Talk of your cold! through the parka’s fold it stabbed like a driven nail.
If our eyes we’d close, then the lashes froze till sometimes we couldn’t see;
It wasn’t much fun, but the only one to whimper was Sam McGee.

And that very night, as we lay packed tight in our robes beneath the snow,
And the dogs were fed, and the stars o’erhead were dancing heel and toe,
He turned to me, and “Cap,” says he, “I’ll cash in this trip, I guess;
And if I do, I’m asking that you won’t refuse my last request.”

Well, he seemed so low that I couldn’t say no; then he says with a sort of moan:
“It’s the cursed cold, and it’s got right hold till I’m chilled clean through to the bone.
Yet ‘taint being dead—it’s my awful dread of the icy grave that pains;
So I want you to swear that, foul or fair, you’ll cremate my last remains.”

A pal’s last need is a thing to heed, so I swore I would not fail;
And we started on at the streak of dawn; but God! he looked ghastly pale.
He crouched on the sleigh, and he raved all day of his home in Tennessee;
And before nightfall a corpse was all that was left of Sam McGee.

There wasn’t a breath in that land of death, and I hurried, horror-driven,
With a corpse half hid that I couldn’t get rid, because of a promise given;
It was lashed to the sleigh, and it seemed to say: “You may tax your brawn and brains,
But you promised true, and it’s up to you to cremate those last remains.”

Now a promise made is a debt unpaid, and the trail has its own stern code.
In the days to come, though my lips were dumb, in my heart how I cursed that load.
In the long, long night, by the lone firelight, while the huskies, round in a ring,
Howled out their woes to the homeless snows—O God! how I loathed the thing.

And every day that quiet clay seemed to heavy and heavier grow;
And on I went, though the dogs were spent and the grub was getting low;
The trail was bad, and I felt half mad, but I swore I would not give in;
And I’d often sing to the hateful thing, and it hearkened with a grin.

Till I came to the marge of Lake Lebarge, and a derelict there lay;
It was jammed in the ice, but I saw in a trice it was called the “Alice May.”
And I looked at it, and I thought a bit, and I looked at my frozen chum;
Then “Here,” said I, with a sudden cry, “is my cre-ma-tor-eum.”

Some planks I tore from the cabin floor, and I lit the boiler fire;
Some coal I found that was lying around, and I heaped the fuel higher;
The flames just soared and the furnace roared—such a blaze you seldom see;
Then I burrowed a hole in the glowing coal, and I stuffed in Sam McGee.

Then I made a hike, for I didn’t like to hear him sizzle so;
And the heavens scowled, and the huskies howled, and the wind began to blow.
It was icy cold, but the hot sweat rolled down my cheeks, and I don’t know why;
And the greasy smoke in an inky cloak went streaking down the sky.

I do not know how long in the snow I wrestled with grisly fear;
But the stars came out and they danced about ere again I ventured near;
I was sick with dread, but I bravely said: “I’ll just take a peep inside.
I guess he’s cooked, and it’s time I looked;” . . . then the door I opened wide.

And there sat Sam, looking cool and calm, in the heart of the furnace roar;
And he wore a smile you could see a mile, and he said: “Please close that door.
It’s fine in here, but I greatly fear you’ll let in the cold and storm—
Since I left Plumtree, down in Tennessee, it’s the first time I’ve been warm.”

There are strange things done in the midnight sun
By the men who moil for gold;
The Arctic trails have their secret tales
That would make your blood run cold;
The Northern Lights have seen queer sights,
But the queerest they ever did see
Was that night on the marge of Lake Lebarge
I cremated Sam McGee.
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Ahhh the macaber, yes? 
But I desire to give you another, simply because I can. :)

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A noiseless patient spider

by Walt Whitman

A noiseless patient spider,
I mark'd where on a little promontory it stood isolated,
Mark'd how to explore the vacant vast surrounding,
It launch'd forth filament, filament, filament, out of itself,
Ever unreeling them, ever tirelessly speeding them.
And you O my soul where you stand,
Surrounded, detached, in measureless oceans of space,
Ceaselessly musing, venturing, throwing, seeking the spheres to connect them,
Till the bridge you will need be form'd, till the ductile anchor hold,
Till the gossamer thread you fling catch somewhere, O my soul.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

100 books for men, for me?


So I stumbled upon a page called '100 Must Read Books: The Man's Essential Library.'
Why I was taken to a site clearly intended for male creatures, I don't know and don't want to be offended I gave it a 'thumbs up' anyways).
But as I looked through the list, I remembered that I had reached a predicament yesterday:

I have nothing to read.

Ahhh, so what is the point you may ask? Well hold your damn horses! *Cough*Impatient*Cough*

I have read a few of the books on this list but I didn't expect to come across Dante's The Divine Comedy, of which I was one of two people to read The Inferno for my summer English project.
(I think that makes me cool, by the way)


Well any how I need to make a list of books I want to read, but I am certainly not going to take the time to do that right now, maybe that will be my next post...

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Complete Boredom.

I want to play The Legend of Zelda:Ocarina of Time.

Alas, my sister occupies the Tv and unless she falls asleep I can't play :(
Ah well, this would be okay if I had something else to do. Like paint or color or something creative damnit!

*Sigh*

You want to know what I hate though?  Fricken Jabbu-Jabbu's stomach.  This level shouldn't be the hardest in the game, but for some reason it is! No matter how many times I play the game, it takes me FOR-EV-ER to beat that level.  I can never remember the right way to go even if I remember what to do in the rooms themselves. 

UHHHG!

Oh and I also hate not having a book to read.  It's unbearable.

I need to do something creative... I could start my sewing project, but that would mean going outside in the cold.
Efffff.

Hmm. Perhaps inspiration will strike...

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Oh dear

I sent in my Freshmen Application to the University of Washington about 10 minutes ago.

Now I am scared shitless.

Yeah, I have heard it from my friends and my family and both of my councellors that I have nothing to worry about.  Oh yes I do.  How can I honestly stack up when the people I know who got in are fricken geniuses like Jessica, Hillary or Cam?  Yeah, uh I can't.

I'm not looking forward to getting that damned letter saying 'sorry, but you suck. go to a trade school you idiot.' Worst of all, I have no idea when it is going to come, so untill that lovely bit of dissappointment graces my mailbox I get to freak out every time the mailman comes by.

Next for me is Western.  I feel a bit more confident about getting in but I'm not entirely sure if I want to even go to a university next year.  A Jr. College would be very helpful for my sanity but lets not forget that it would also be feeding that sick monster inside of me that devalues everything I do. Even though the normal side knows that this is an equally good path to go down That thing eats away at my expectations rubbing it in that I'm not good enough. Or something.


Uhhg. I annoy myself.

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Imagine you are sitting in a concert hall.  The seats are uhpolstered with a fine, blood red with gold trimming everywhere.  The hall bubbles out before you, the clouds reflecting the soft yellow light of the lamps. The stage lays before you with a gigantic, billowing curtain of the same elegent crimson as the seats.  Murmers of voices can be heard as people are finding their chairs.  Finally the lights fall, the curtain opens to an orchestra sitting paitenely.  The concert master tunes them, sits and rises for the conductor.   He lifts his arms. A soft piano is the first to be heard. you close your eyes, and this is what you see:
*pay special attention to the words in the bottom right corner*


let yourself feel. from Esteban Diácono on Vimeo.


Well, this is what I see.  If a peice of music really moves me, I see colors dancing to the melodies, creshendos, and decreshendos.  This is the first time I have known that others see that too...

Anyways if you think I am stupid for this then why are you even reading my blog?

Video courtesy of TheNextWeb.com
Copyright 2006-2010 © The Next Web (<--look, i cited you, please don't sue me :)

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Music is the the soul of the world.

I want to dance in the middle of a forest,
in the middle of the night under the fat leaves of summer.
I want the only light to come from the moon and the stars.
I want my heart to sing with a thousand melodies.
I want to feel safe in your arms,
as we step with the beat of the song within our hearts.
Turning,
Spinning,
Flowing,
Being.
I want to hear the harmony of the night-dwellers.
I want to sit by the soft whispering of a stream as I stare into the black expanse.
I want to feel my soul tumble and fall with the current tempo of the water.
I want to hear the sustained chords on the wind.

I want to drive down a deserted forest highway,
the trees blurring past, with only that moment.

Friday, January 1, 2010

There is a difference...

This is something that purturbs me a bit more than it should, I admitt.  However, it is pretty annoying when people think that Dumbledore and Gandalf are played by the same actor...

THEY ARE NOT.

Not saying that being played by the same person would be a bad thing, since both are pretty great in their own ways.

But it would be extremely difficult to have two huge fanasy roles to keep track of sooo I am providing proof that they are indeed, not the same person.

Gandalf


Actor: Ian McKellen
Other Roles of Note: The Golden Compass, Flushed Away, X-men






                                Dumbledore


Actor: Richard Harris (in Sorcer's Stone and Chmber of secrets) Then Michael Gambon (the rest)
Other Roles of Note: Fantastic Mr.Fox, The Life Aquatic

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